If I said
If I said I’ll let my hair down,
Tell me, will you blow the wind for me,
If I said I’m okay to take a step forward,
Would you clear out the gravel beneath my feet,
Would you puff the clouds away,
Would you whisper to the moon to rise,
Would you make the ocean jostle and sing,
If I said I’m okay to take a step forward,
For with you,
My heartbeats are calmer,
My footsteps, firmer,
My eyes, brighter,
With you,
I’m home.
~ Anwesha
For now
For now,
Hold on tight,
Hold me close,
Let our hearts lay low,
I know you feel the urge too,
Don’t fight,
If you could see past what’s around you,
Let your mind guide you within,
You would find a flame burning bright,
Giving your heart that push,
Go, my love, take flight,
Don’t stop me, love,
When I say my love for you is undying,
When I bring you coffee at 2 am,
When I kiss you in your sleep,
It’s your beautiful mind, it’s enchanting,
It’s your mesmerising eyes, I’m flying,
Your mind warns you,
Scares you, pleads you to flee.
Please, let it be,
Because your heart knows what it feels,
And I know it’s real,
And while your heart and mind fight,
I’ll pray with all my soul’s might,
For your heart’s victory,
So you see the beauty, the peace and love,
That the stars have forethought,
Just for you.
~ Anwesha
I Listen On
On days when I'm low,
When the birds sing but my mind drowns in sorrow,
When the street's late night whispers are sirens,
And my heart urges my mind,
Honey, get some sleep,
I know you're tired,
I pick my pen,
Wipe my frown,
And paint a smile,
And I listen on,
I listen to the stars,
Their harmonies celebrating in the skies,
I listen to the midnight candle's flame,
Its silent rage, it's calming,
I listen to the wind,
That rustling branch in the distance,
That flutter of the bat,
Who's awake, with me,
I listen to my heartbeat,
My breath as my chest rises,
And I remind my soul,
Honey, you're alive,
This day is a blessing,
A gift that's for me to cherish,
I tell the stars,
Could you wipe my mind's lens?
I think they're a bit dusty,
They're too young to be rusty,
But I think they need a clean,
I say,
And the stars silently chime,
And they caress me,
Nudge me into a slumber,
And as they float across the sky,
They pick out the dusty flecks,
And tell me,
Sweetheart when you'll awake,
Remember to take a nice long breath,
It's a new day,
And I can't await to see the tale you'll paint.
~ Anwesha
The Power of Not Knowing
The power of not knowing,
The peace of believing,
The strength of persevering,
The storm of uncertainties cycling,
Is not too far flung,
From the calm of the ocean,
Imagining the creatures,
Tucked beneath the waves,
Feeling that touch,
Without knowing their breath,
Flying amongst the stars,
Unbeknownst to their touch,
Caressing the constellations,
No conversation, ‘Hey, what’s your name?’,
That’s the power of not knowing,
It’s the power of believing,
The power of not knowing,
Is the faith of the heart,
The power of not knowing,
Is the Universe’s whisper behind that wild tuft of hair,
Saying, ‘hold on, I know.’
~ Anwesha
Stop
Stop, don't curl,
Don't scrunch into a ball,
Don't let those thoughts hurl,
Take it away,
Take that weight away,
Lock that choker away,
Banish that devil,
Far away,
Stop, stop trembling,
Stop that piercing aching,
Stop my bones shattering,
Stop my heart breaking,
Release,
Release that poison far away,
Pour that toxin,
Throw it oh so far away,
Then,
Tell it to stay away,
My mind's done being led astray,
Tell it I said 'Go to Hell',
I'm fed up of breaking out of there everyday,
Keep it locked far away,
So far it can't see me,
So far it can't feel me breathe,
So far away, so my heart beats,
Unafraid to breathe,
Always free,
Then, my eyes will shine,
They will gleam,
As my smile beams,
Then that angel within will sing,
Sweetie,
You're free,
Fly free,
That's who you're meant to be
Get me out of my mind
Get me out of my mind,
Louden the noise outside,
Engage my hands,
Distract my thoughts,
Heal what’s broken,
Restore the faith I lost,
Give me that token,
That somewhere,
The love I seek, is indeed afloat,
Bring me to a place untainted,
A home unscarred,
Reassure my heart,
That one day,
It too, will be loved with passion unending,
But for now,
Let my heart bleed,
Let my tears flood my crimson filled cheeks,
Let my mind sink into the grave,
Of the love that never sprouted,
The bond that never grew wings,
The passion that fizzled away,
Before the tame flame of two souls danced away,
Let my heart grieve,
But oh, I pray to the stars above,
Please let it heal,
Let it feel,
The love that is awaiting,
So far, unseen.
~ Anwesha
Let me cry
Some nights I want to cry,
I want to shriek,
Shed a tear or two,
Let my lungs erupt,
Feel my heart sink,
And take my emotions,
To the utmost brink,
Then reel them back,
Let them rest,
In a teary, salty solution,
Then my mind reminds me,
Gently counsels me,
How true it is, I know not,
Do I want to believe it?
Any other option? I’m afraid not.
This loneliness is a lie,
This emptiness a hoax,
This desire is selfish,
How dare I turn a blind eye,
To all the love that surrounds me,
If I just took a pause and stared?
It’s true,
Though my company, I cherish,
I can’t help but ask,
Why does this heart want more?
Is it wrong?
To ask for a companion to love,
To feel their skin next to mine,
Their chest rise and fall next to mine,
To fall asleep to their heartbeat,
The sweetest lullaby?
~ Anwesha
Screw you, Oh Kind Sir
I was walking past the store,
Midnight’s hour, the party’s over,
Reminiscing karaoke,
Hand in hand with my best friends,
Till I saw you,
All your disgusting male glory,
Your ignorant words of grotesque,
Tell me, is that your brain at its best?
You said you wanted to be there last Friday,
Dear kind sir,
Why the f*** do you dare?
Well, you see,
I will answer that question,
if you please,
You saw me and you thought,
"Here’s a pretty girl,
She’s laughing so respect,
she must have not,
She is walking past at midnight,
She must be asking for it right?
She talked about last Friday,
Don’t matter that she didn’t tell me,
I ought to tell her something creepy,
Else how would I be manly?
So what if she won’t like it,
She sure can’t fight it,
Me in my male glory,
I will disgust you,
And in that,
Will I find my bravery."
~ Anwesha
Her Heart
I don’t write to you anymore,
No, I don’t spill words on paper anymore,
I don’t let tears paint crinkles on my diary no more,
I don’t labour my thoughts with messages for you anymore,
I grew tired, my love,
My heart grew fainter each time it broke,
My innocence stained each time it was left stranded,
Longing for that one soul, on this lone, bustling island,
Her boldness peaked,
Her confidence shone,
But my love, she gave up waiting,
She embraced her lonesome,
Yes, she glowed,
Her sparkling eyes paint stories you’d behold,
Yet she feared her heart had grown stone-cold,
The million pieces she’d sown together countless times,
Screamed at her,
“Sweetheart, please don’t break me again,
I don’t think I could put myself together,
Again.”
~ Anwesha
All At Once
Look at her there,
Yes, right there,
Gusts blowing,
Waves crashing,
Feet burrowing in the sand,
Look at her there,
Right by that rock,
Locks dancing,
Fingertips grazing that icy chill,
Feeling everything she can feel,
Everything. Everywhere.
All at once.
That first cry of a baby,
Miles away,
Her mother’s divine tear on her babe’s cheek,
Embracing her world in her arms’ shields.
That first flutter of a blue butterfly’s wings,
That metamorphosis,
The delicate breeze she blew,
That flight into finite freedom,
Soon, infinite.
That autumn leaf falling,
Swaying to its resting place,
Amidst its kin,
Nestled between soil and it’s ancestor’s skin,
That final rustle, that tranquil demise.
That first flutter, of a life in flight.
That first embrace, of a lifetime of hail.
Because when it’s everything, everywhere, all at once,
She can’t help but feel,
Embrace all spirits,
Let her feet and mind sink in.
Alive to each of life’s pulse.